IT IS LIKE PROBABLY ONE OF THE WORST DREAM I EVER HAD IN MY LIFE!!! It is totally "Ewww~" Okay, maybe I'm just cruel and cold-blooded when I said that BUT. So this was what happen and it's only a part of it. I slept for 12 hours so I had other stuff mashed into it too.

Right after his "Yatterman" conference, we were like going crazy. Crazy + Pissed off = Not a good mood. We just kept on quarreling and the rest of the members couldn't be bothered to stop us or even say a single things. After that we were both screaming, "I WILL NEVER FALL FOR SOMEONE AS IDIOTIC AS YOU!" Then he said something so CRUEL, "You will never fall in love with anyone except me." T-T Doesn't this guy need a smack or beating!!! I just walked off ignoring him. To make things worse, we were living together D: As in the whole of Arashi including me. I was extremly irritated by him and to prove that he was wrong I brought home this guy I knew for very long and told them I would be getting married. He had a name but due to privacy I will keep it a secret. At first they were all "EHHH~!" but since it was my choice they kind of accepted it. A few days later, we were both the only one at home.

"Are you really going to get married to him?"

"Ya and it's none of your business right?"

"But we were the one who were supposed to get married?"

"Sho, you ruined everything! You could prevent it you know? If you stop her, none of this would happen now!" (I don't know what I was talking about actually).

So you hugged me from behind and said "Don't married couple need to trust each other more!"

I kicked you real hard. "Who say I'm going to get married to you. And who say I need to trust you HUH?"

You then took my left hand "Well, then why are you still wearing the engagement ring I gave you?"

"I'M NOT OKAY!!! I'M NOT"

The rest, I give you to slowly think(:

Erm..yatta!

Not having a good appetitie is making me scream for "HELP!!" The only thing I've been eating are rice, long bean, potato and nothing much. Drinking water, soup and orange juice only. I even rejected eating fish and mushroom today. I HATE MUSHROOMS NOW! Talking about food, the hokkaido fair was just like usual only more people because we went during lunch time. The first thing I attacked was of course the Koroke!(: We then went walking around looking for nice stuff to eat. The japanese guy was so sweet. He even wanted to change my koroke for his salmon. I mean his gonna make a bigg loss like $10 plus. We tried the famous Char Siew ramen. I always hear Aiba talking about it and I wonder what's the difference between our Char Siew and their Char Siew. They used lean meat for the ramen. Carine and I were going crazy in imitating the arashi members. We were laughing like mad. She got to imitate Ohno while I got to imitate Sho. It was hilarious, really! We just went oishii, umai, oishii, umai, maximum umai and all over again. One thing I didn't like about the ramen was that the noodle was too thick. We just have to see your preference. I LOVE TAKOSEN!!! I think Takoyaki is the mini and round ver. of okonomiyaki.

FAT SLUTTY FAT!):

I'm now 1kg AWAY from my goal, OKAY! I'll prove to you all :D

New blogskin.
LITING. LITING. LITING. LITING

The reason why I don't feel so much hurt is because I haven't met him yet.
Before everything gets too late, should I give him up?
Or should I wait...?

BLEH BLEH BLEH :P I really need happy pills right now!! Saving grace is not doing their work ):

Well, life sometimes do have their up and downs. Don't they? With my recent emotional moments doesn't help being optimistic at all. I guess God love playing tricks on me every now and then. Just seeing how I would react to every worse case scenario that will come by. Life haven't been easy for me as usual. I'm glad that I have people like Jonna-nee chan, high school mates, Rin-chan to cheer me up. Sometimes I just feel like telling you all everything that is going through my mind but I don't even want to bother you with all the little stuff I'm going through. Urgh I can't believe how things are piling up that I don't even know what to do. I just have the urge to pull all my hair and throw my stuff out of the window. I just hope all will be well once a new chapter unfolds.

Hearing Flumpool newest single now. I just feel really attracted to Ryuuta-san voice especially in 春風 unplugged. I'm happy that I found them. They are coming to 1-year soon in October!!! Congrats in advanced. HAPPY~~~ (:

Recent Events.
- Tokio releasing a new single for Nagase drama!(:
- HEYx3 ARASHI. Rolling pipe was hilarious. Nino asked Matsumoto-san (Downtown) what was his favourite dish cooked by his wife. Make me wonder what kind of dish should I cook for my husband in the future. Well I was actually thinking of sweet & sour pork. If he ever like it :D
- Arashi on Music Lovers. Did anyone watched it? Or is anyone reading this both a fan of Yuzu and Arashi? KYA~ I can't believe that they finally said it on tv that Yuzu is a fan of Arashi. Aww make me feel so sweet~~The badminton athlete was kinda cute.

I guess that's all and here is Flumpool newest single.

MW ～Dear Mr. & Ms. ピカレスク～

1) Why I started blogging?

I love writing. All sorts of writing. I just needed a random place to write down all my thoughts, my rant, my opinon or view. Soon, the more I wrote the more my thoughts were arranged and I started to be able to understand the way my brain was working. Like what people do say, "Learn more about your brain because it is more dangerous then anything." Yup, I guess that's all.

If anyone doesn't know, I own a Livejournal and my own person diary(: & I have a private LJ that no one knows what the URL is :D

Listening to "Spend my Life with you" by Eric Benet & Tamia.

Can I just see you every morning when
I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me
Every night
Can we just feel this way together
Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you

This week was fun and I get to hang out with the girls again!!! They are always the best when you need someone to rely on, to take an opinion from. & I find out how much I actually love to walk from Downtown East to Pasir Ris Park and then keep on talking till we are able to see the beautiful sunset. Laughing through every random thought that would come into our mind and mixing up all our words. XD I'm glad we are meeting for a lovely picnic this sunday : D

Oh ya, Tokio concert dates are out so I'm really excited! :) I got a little bit disspointed with the dates because it's only 5 dates, 3 destinations and thats all! Enough with the dissapointment, TOKIO's on tour for 2009!!! Just hope by the time I am in Japan, i get to see them in concert XD

Labels: girls, random, tokio

You know, how does it feel like to be lost in someone's eyes?

The more I fall in love with him, the more I go dependent on him. The more I look at him, the more I want to runaway from the fact that I know right deep down in my guts that he is the one. The more I see that pathetic face of him, the more I want to hug him so tightly that I'm never letting him go. The more I see him interacting with the other members, the more I want to cuddle him during a cold winter night right beside the fireplace or during a hot summer right under the breezy wind of the starry night.

There is no one like you! & there is no reason as to why I love you. (^o^) Even though I'm so drowned out right now with this love, I'm still not giving up hope!

I do not care what car you drive, where you live. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. If your clothes are this year cutting edge. If your trust fund is unlimited. If you are A-list, B-list or never heard of your list. I only care about the words that flutter from your mind. They are the only thing that you truly own. The only thing I will remember you by. I will not fall in love with your bones and skin. I will not fall in love with the places you have been. I will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter out from your extraodinary mind.

ps. Sakuran was a great movie isn't it~